yet another day with the btp gang. kaye and sam and i and dean, and guest starring drew. HEH. i think i dint do as much today. all my contact lenses' fault. :\ HARRUMPP. make me feel so sleepy. like now, i just took it off, and my eyes feel so, refreshed. (: its the contact lenses.
HA. i slept like at ten yesterday, and i woke up at 7.30. 7.30! wah kao. was so late for school. HEHE. sleep so much. no wonder i feel so awake.
hmmm. i feel kinda guilty for not wanting to play in the band for church anniversary this sunday. but i really have to stop all commitments. cos of the o's. and the way marvin was talking, he sounded really really disappointed and angry that i wasnt playing. what am i supposed to do man. i have to stop what. cant keep commiting time to the band and not study. : aiyah. i'm stuck. god what should i do.
you know what. i feel really scared that i wont do well for o's. like the marks i'm getting back for english are really really horrendous now, and i'm fearful of what the results might be. i mean, what will happen if i dont do well? i have no year 11 equivalent, then, i may not get the uni course i want, and i dont know what i'll do if i dont. how how how. i'm getting more and more stressed.
i think its very easy to say that i have faith but very hard to put it in action. i guess in times like these it just goes to show how much of it i have. and to really put it to the test. all i really really ask for is just to pass my humans, and hopefully get 12 points. hopefully. but it seems so difficult. i want to have faith that god will pull me through. i want to have the hope that i will do well. i want to believe that god's always there for me to guide me through all these. and i want to know that all my fears are just satan's way of putting me down.
ah well. all i can say is. krissy. you know that you can do it. trust in god, have faith in jesus, and believe that the spirit will work in you. you go girl.
another day tmr. i hope it's another day of laughter joy and love, along with seriousness, wisdom, and peace, with a dash of hope, faith and excitement.
god is great and his grace fills the earth fills the heavens
a shout of praise.
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